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Mental Chillness

by Lazy Eye

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wake up feeling fine maybe I'll be on time for once gotta take my meds try to clear my head so I can be alright you don't know what I'd give to live without this illness I'd just like to live in a state of mental chillness didn't sleep last night now I'm feeling quite strung out, burnt out why do I feel so low? can't let my pace be slow I try to do my best all the time you don't know what I'd give to live without this illness I'd just like to live in a state of mental chillness
2.
Queer 04:39
is it okay to feel how I feel? how can I be sure it's totally real? am I a weirdo, am I going to hell? is there something wrong with me cause I can't tell I can't change I won't change this is sincere I'm completely, totally and unapologetically queer why do I feel for Sara the way I should for John? I'd just like to know and feel like I belong what if my parents don't love me anymore? what if they kick me out and lock the door? I can't change I won't change this is sincere I'm completely, totally and unapologetically queer maybe life is better just being who you are this has been unfair to myself from the start I was unfair to myself from the start I wanna love myself, so I'll start I can't change I won't change I won't live in fear I'm completely, totally and unapologetically queer
3.
Hoping words Will spill from my open mouth To be heard But sound won't come out Pretty girl She's digging her Own grave To my heart I am my own slave This is the part Where time slows down Set apart 6 feet underground Lay me down Put flowers in my hair Is it too much To expect you to care Was I worth Worth all the effort Worth the time Was I worth the hurt? This is the part Where time slows down Set apart 6 feet underground credits
4.
Speak Softly 04:07
I'm not graceful and I'm not poetic and I'm not flowery by any sense of the word and I'm not dainty and I'm not fragile and I wasn't born to serve the image you expect me to be not hairless, not thin and I don't speak softly not sweet or docile don't tell me to smile cause I won't speak softly I'm aggressive pretty expressive and I love to take up space probably lacking in poise making a lot of noise exist beyond a pretty face the image you expect me to be not hairless, not thin and I don't speak softly not sweet or docile don't tell me to smile cause I won't speak softly don't tell me to smile don't you tell me to smile the image you expect me to be not hairless, not thin and I don't speak softly not sweet or docile don't tell me to smile cause I won't speak softly
5.
Naive 04:39
I was so naive at seventeen to think that kissing boys would fill the void and help me to cope what I was going through but I know better than that now I'm much better than that now now I believe that I'm worth something and now I don't need your validation that shit don't mean nothin to me I was so naive at seventeen to think I needed others in proximity scared of what the world was going to be I can't do it alone not I, myself or me, no not me but now I believe that I'm worth something and now I don't need your validation I am the I and that's good enough and no I don't need your validation that shit don't mean nothin to me
6.
Quiet Hell 04:31
So tell me baby are you listening? Cause I don't wanna repeat myself So tell me baby are you listening? Cause when I talk you're always zoning out I just keep on yelling, screaming, shouting and no baby it's not alright I just wanna talk, but when I try you always wanna pick a fight They say the key's communication In every meaningful relationship But when I open up to you You shut me down and burn our bridge I just keep on yelling, screaming, shouting and no baby it's not alright I just wanna talk, but when I try you always wanna pick a fight So tell me baby are you listening? Cause I don't wanna repeat myself So tell me baby are you listening? Cause I am tired of quiet hell I just keep on yelling, screaming, shouting and no baby it's not alright I just wanna talk, but when I try you always wanna pick a fight

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released January 4, 2019

Written by Hannah LaRocca
Lead vox/Rhythm guitar: Hannah LaRocca
Lead Guitar: Connor LaRocca
Bass guitar/backing vox: Maddie Blank
Drums: Amber Ferreira

Recorded and Mixed by Kyle Pulley at the Headroom, Philadelphia
www.theheadroomphiladelphia.com

Additional engineering by Mark Watter

Assisted by Chance Halter, Alex Bessen, Jax Savage, Gabrielle Molnar, and Danny Murrillo
Mastered by Ryan Schwabe, Philadelphia PA.

Cover art by Hannah LaRocca

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Formally a one grrrl project, in September 2017, Lazy Eye became a full band.

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